By Layne Smith . . .
In the blink of an eye, everything changes…
On a simple afternoon, after having spent an amazing day with someone I love, I’m on my way home to cook dinner for my parents and just have a simple family night. Then all of a sudden, in the blink of an eye, everything changes.
I see something that I should never have to see. I feel pain that I should never have to feel.
But it was only after it happened that I realized what I had seen and what I had felt.
The thing I saw that night, I will never be able to get out of my head. The sounds that I heard that that I will never be able to ignore. The amount of pressure that I felt on my body that night will always be there.
Some people call this a miracle.
Some call it God’s saving grace.
Some call it luck.
But I call it life.
Life does this funny thing where it puts you in the right place at the right time.
There are questions after questions that I ask myself everyday about that night.
There are some questions, though, that I will never be able to ask.
And other questions I will never be able to answer.
People ask me if I’m okay, and I am.
I am walking and I am breathing.
I am beyond okay.
But I am changed. I am not the person I used to be.
When you go through something like that at only age 16 you see life in a whole different light.
Not entirely in a religious standpoint, but in a reality standpoint.
When you see life differently you don’t take things for granted anymore.
You don’t hold the grudges like you used to.
You want to hold the people that you love and never let them go.
And sometimes you just want to sit there. Sit there in silence and smile. Smile because you are alive and are breathing. Living the life that you deserve.
I call that life.
When you see your life flash before your eyes some say there is that split second that you see something or think of something.
But I didn’t.
I didn’t have time to.
The next thing that I remember after the headlights came straight towards me is my scream of terror. I didn’t know where I was or what had happened. I am a 16 year old girl on her way home to cook dinner. Who knew I would have had a life or death experience that night?
Because in the blink of an eye, everything can change.
Knowing that I am now going to try to:
Smile at the sad things because maybe that will make them better.
Help the ones in need.
Tell the ones you love how you feel.
Apologize to the angry.
And most of all… Live life now.